PEOPLE! shifted my blog to.. www.my-nasty-friends.blogspot.com (:

oh well honestly. in a somber mood. for almost the whole day. anyway. tried to be happy. wanted to have fun with yulin but she somehow ignore me. sigh. forget it. so i slept. after school. headed to netball court. went to vista and as i walked, i knocked into this darn signboard. didn't know it was there! crap man. helen kept laughing non-stop. haha. simple ballwork. matches with the basketball boys defending us. (: oh well. my shooting sucks totally, yarh?  k. promise to buck up.
after trianing. walked home with the twins again. hey. it's great know. walking with them. lil' ye kinda disturbed me, always! then lil' yuan is the nice one. always shut ye up for me. duh. anyway. saw pearlyn running. with yingting and peiying cycling. poof* next time ask her out for running. ((:
hey. surprisingly, this malay guy confessed to me. haha! finally. ever since last year? he kept mum. till today. he speaks up. well. maybe after my questioning? somehow. good. there's still people attracted to me yeah! haha!! 
yawn. training tomorrow and friday. set. plus. i have to buy furniture from ikea for the classroom. argh. crap man. gotta travel all the way down then bring those dumb stuff back to classroom the next day. bully!

i thought, if i didn't choose-

the day i had you, the day i'll start to change. (: my feelings for you are real. won't back out, won't leave. love you.* seventeen of january. lasting..

i love BABE-
muacks!

it's a sunday and ain't boring at all. (: jestinee first visit is.. our house! cool. the moment i woke up. she's lying beside me. small and cute. haha. then went out with aunt to ps. yep. aimed a nike tee and ripcurl pencil case. :) oh well. noticed something. samuel looks like my husband. i was carrying aunt's baby bag then pushing the baby wheeler. somehow, like a mum. cool though. teased by yizhang that i'm a lesbian. cause wanshi all came down to kfc and look for me. all with short and spike hair. anyway. went back home after eating.
well. on the way was msging with dear. uhhuh. so upbeat. (: wanted to msg guaishou, then *beep. came her msg. asked me out. yay. wanted to ask her out too. buying stuff. got my stuff then we strolled around. headed off to vista for her haircut. saw cha and remus! yippee. went up and chat for awhile. cha still the same. cheerful and lovely. duh. after her haircut, we walked back to cwp. then parted ways. yep. i'm occupied. ((:

thanks. for giving us a chance-
loveya.
face the music and rid myself of the past mistakes i made so i can help yourself and those who count on me- no room for lies.

CRAP. woke up early in the morning then off to aunt's house. jestinee's one month old. yawns. she needs to be carried on arm then she'll sleep! naughty girl. yizhang drove me to cwp. met up with siewkwan. is like. marathon for us. from one shop to other. from one level to another. repeatedly. obviously, we're sick of looking at furnitures. decided not to buy anything. headed off to basement. bought breads and bubbletea. cha jio me for mahjong. obviously, i didn't went.
bestie came. went to freak's working place. qiu was there. i stood outside. later. freak came out with her bag. she's fired. alright. misunderstanding. she almost cried. anyway. she got better after much consolelation from qiu. slack at timezone.
saw junan at cwp. met him again at timezone. we chatted.. until..
junan: go find yourself a bf larh.
me: why?
junan: always hang out with friends that don't look like a girl or boy.
me: (punch)
junan: really lor. go find yourself a bf.
me: nah. why must i.
junan: with them you don't feel bored, i'll feel bored for you man.
me: (smile) not boring larh.
end. as usual, humorous guy. glad to see him anyway. (:
okay. i was at honey's house. waited for her from seven all the way to nine. yes. i cried. musics. memories and you. couldn't control my bladder anymore after one bottle of alcohol, margarita. somehow. told her why am i feeling down. not exactly though. cause i kept answering with don't know. mitang never fails to cheer me up. she's dirty plus crappy. she accompanied me while i'm waiting for a cab. not to mention. she play a fool again. but still. thanks mitang. your soy milk. your concern and all. haha.
saw dear on my way home. almost alight but.. nope. about to meet her, but.. nope. no courage. no confidence. wonder if we could ever make it.

do i have to cry-

met up with only mitang, elaine, alicia, puayhua and babe. rushed to school. phew. make it on time. first period and i'm pissed. my chem teacher, sucks totally. forever showing us her moodless face. crap.
during recess. mitang kept pestering me. as in. begging me to watch movie. oh well. horror movie man. imagine? honestly. i don't dare to watch. and babe is a bimbo! haha!! anyway. gotta stay back after school for class decoration. yay. bananas. ((:
went to cwp. with bestie and sk. look for ginny and all. yawns. waste my time only. bought breads and went home after finishing. yum. wanted to go for a run. but, nobody run with me! aww. poor dear. msged her during my art lesson so can't really talk much. duh. wanted to buy takeaways for her. but so fast, she can have MAC! haha.
going off to ikea tomorrow. with asmira, zul, hazuan and sk. but. it's jestinee's big day tomorrow. her one month celebration. ): aww. anyway. i'll go down after the trip to ikea.

now look at me. instead of moving on, i refuse to see. that I keep coming back. and i'm stuck in a moment. that wasn't meant to last. no matter how i fight it. can't deny. just can't let you go.
bestie-

though everything has been said and done. i still feel you like I'm right beside you. there's still no word from you. wish I could find you. just like you found me. then i would never let you go. i still need you, i still care about you.
dear-

rained early in the morning. ate sweet in class then got teased by chelsea. everything as usual. slept during mother tongue lesson. bet with siewkwan. whoever sleeps during lessons, except mt, gotta surrender fifty bucks. (: siewkwan, start saving up k! haha. i'm feeling cold in class. darnmit. crappy weather.
yawn. no training. and it's boring. nowhere to go. so decided to go viva for lunch. is like. i've not been eating. kinda sucessful that i manage to get a flat tummy. woohoo. anyway. we slack around. sweetie msg me. after that. sent dear home with mitang and sk. sat under her block. bought coconuts. yummy. we were enjoying. laughing. crapping. snapping pictures. then. walked mitang home. they both teached me hokkien dialet. embarrassing larh. so many i don't understand. but i remember this ' ho ho hee ' haha. they laughed like nobody business man. thanks anyway. i've forgotten most of it already. shit. duh.

tomorrow will be a better day-

mother tongue lesson with yulin. (: during geo. she ain't feeling good. somehow. down. tried to comfort her but she ignores me. well. so during geo lesson, chea and i decided to write a short note for her. uhhuh. hopefully, she'll feel better.
back to class. asked ginny about marvin. out of the blue. we talked about other stuff. through a small piece of paper. kinda hilarious. i'm being sorta naughty. anyway. we were just having fun.
netball training as usual. get the letter from dear. read it while we're all walking together. it's drizzling. making the letter wet. ): anyway. finished reading. one word, truthfully. i'm feeling so comforted. no whys. but, felt that way. yep. i still can't go to you. but, i'll fill up the space, just for you. trust me. i'm doing it slowly. dear, give me time. i'll go back to you. take your time too. won't rush. :))
sigh. i'm afraid i might slack again this year. please don't. i'm gonna get promoted.- determination.
 

met up with mitang before meeting the rest. okay. she's torturing me everywhere i go. is like. punching. pinching. ouch man. haha. but! she fell while chasing me. then. slap my head. and pull my hair. gosh. she's going bersek.
hang around timezone. watching people trying their luck to get those plushie in that pathetic 'cage'. many got it. aww. i want that tweety and hello kitty. big big one. (:
it was raining. walked together to vista with the rest for lunch. huiming joined us shortly. wanshi was teased by us. slack around. then decided to look for bestie. she's working.
accompanied mitang home. then look up for dear. well. we just walked with silence. no sound. no voice. but. i'm feeling you.
on the way. while walking. you came into my mind. suddenly. memories of us flashed through. out of a sudden. i felt as if you're back. however. when i turned. you're nowhere in sight. how could it be. you were gone just like that. nothing seems to be right-

get the fact that you're gone.